…no desire to pair bond…

…I just realized something about myself which is probably quite obvious to everyone else…

I have no desire to pair bond or be in a serious relationship with a woman. I do have desires for sex and even physical closeness such as massages and kissing. But no desire for dating or relationships. I do think I am truly different than about 99 percent of men. I really dislike the company of other men and don’t like talking about “manly” shit. I don’t consider psychadelic drugs or heavy metal manly shit as most guys don’t like talking about that. I’ve reached this conclusion through observation.

Firstly, we can discuss a blogger Advocatus Diaboli. He advocates visiting prostitutes. Personally, I think the government should stay outta grown adults lives so I suppose it should be legal but I still think it is throwing away money to pay a woman for something she probably enjoys more than I do is stupid. If you have disposable income, just work less hours, bro. But I suspect he secretly craves a girlfriend. I’ve noticed he has repeatedly slammed that Harvey Weinstein dude. I’m not saying that the Harvster is a good dude but it seems hypocritical too me when dudes who consider themselves pussy hounds slam him. You would think that manosphere dudes and guys like AD would admire him. In real life I’ve seen “liberal” dudes slam him and these are “liberal” dudes who talk about slaying pussy just like some frat boy. I think these “liberal” dudes slam Harvey Weinstein so ladies will think they are “good guys” and open their legs for them. But secretly those dudes want to be like Harvey Weinstein. I gotta think that a guy like AD secretly resents handing over money for pussy and wishes he could score like Weinstein minus the legal complications. I think he just trashes Weinstein in the hope that appearing “liberal” will make a woman like him and have sex with him. So I think that secretly AD wants a girlfriend but acts “hard” to seem cool to everyone who reads his blog. He’s basically very similar to the “liberal” guys who berate me when I am very quiet whilst they brag about sex but always say the “right” things politically when womyn are around. He always presents the personna of someone who admires sociopaths, would it not follow that he would admire Harvey Weinstein? Not only is Harvey Weinstein a pu$$y slayer but he is also ugly. Those liberal guys get bent outta shape that an ugly guy is getting prime pu$$y. They think that way because it is a similar hierarchy that they perceive womyn think and they think womyn will like them more for thinking in a (presumably) similar fashion.

The next series of observations comes from watching “MGTOW” assholes. If they just wanted to bang hookers, they wouldn’t cry about “muzzy invayders.” They cry about this because they are worried about darker skinned men getting girlfriends while they cannot. And then they whinge about womyn’s happiness levels declining. They whinge about this because they secretly hope womyn who have ignored them their whole lives will “take them back.” It is not womyn trying to “lure” hem back to the plantation. It is their fantasy that womyn will “need” them and offer not just sex but companionship and loyalty.

So I consider myself an outlier among men. How did I get here? Was it nature? Am I somehow higher on dark triad traits than these other guys and I like being alone for extended times? Was it nurture? I suspect it was nurture. I watched my parents beat each other when I was a small child. I also had to listen to my mean feminist mother say what a failure my father was. She often beat me and my father slapped me around a bit too. I never wanted to get married or have a serious relationship as it meant being abused. Single life meant freedom and loneliness is something easily blunted with a little bit of weed, some videogames or music. But I realize, most guys aren’t just addicted to pu$$y but validation from womyn. The pu$$y I get but not the validation.

And this leaves me with saying I have no alliance to MGTOW, MRA’s or “pro” male “men.” And I strongly dislike gays. Not for the theory every fucking liberal says, that I must secretly crave penis but because when I was younger I knew that gay men preyed on some young guys my age. I actually intentionally kept bad hygiene so those faggots would stay away from me. And that’s one time being a halfbreed helped me because faggots just like womyn prefer white guys.

….kind of funny experience….

…so, uh, I was applying for a job online…

…it asked all the regular stuff…

y’know, name, contact info and resume…

…then it asked for a linked in account…

…well, Linked In is a sleazy data mining company, so I don’t have a linked In account…

so I put N/A, but that’s where shit got weird…

…it asked me how I identify, as a “cis” male or other things…

…I know all those white guys who defend Jack Donovan being awful and think I am a bigot for making meme’s think “cis” men are horrible…

…so I didn’t want to put “cis”…

…there was an option to enter what I “self identify” as…

…I putt “Attack Helicopter….. I know, I know, not very creative…

…it then asked my sexual orientation..

—is this a dating website or a fucking job application????

I shoulda put “tri-sexual”… ..y’know the ole joke, “I’ll try anything (once)…

hahaha, I doubt I’ll hear back from those shysters…

really creepy though…

…most “mgtow’s” are really faketows…

I’m pretty much over the whole mgtow movement and find that not only is it less than useless but when someone hounds me to check blackpilledtruetow69-666-11.81 orwhateverthefuck on youtube, that not only do I find myself leaving the video 43 seconds in due to horrid audio quality but also due to the fact that this movement doesn’t have anything left to say….

I’ve already pointed out that true men going their own way wouldn’t give one iota about the “raypes in cologne” regardless of whether they happened or not…

And I’ve also pointed out that a guy actually going his own way would not bother with the Jordan Petersonesque trope of “womyn these daze are less happy.” Why should a man going his own way care about such a topic…

Now one thing I find entertaining is when so-called mgtow lament the loss of wealth from uber-wealthy dudes like musk or bezos… do you think musk or bezos would do a thing to help a low status man such as yourself? why should you care if he loses billions of dollars? such a man would employ you and pay you as little money as he could and expect inhumane hours of labor in return. such a man is not your friend. you might say it is because you are united by gender that you should care about his loss. trust me, he doesn’t care about your problems and his addiction to pu$$y is not your problemo, brother. It s the same thing that I noticed when white trashionalists like Chuck Crudd at the now defunct GL piggy thought the RMoney would throw them a bone if elected to president. an ignorant racist like Crudd might think that Rmoney embraces identarian politics just as he does but he is downright stupid if he doesn’t realize that a high power man will leave him bleeding in a ditch just as quickly as he would leave a black man dying in a ditch. The only color Rmoney see’s is green. So why do low status men pander to high status men when nothing is returned? why do 30k millionaires talk libertarian tough guy talking points? Isn’t this literally the definition of “cuck?” To sacrifice yourself for someone who thinks you are a piece of shit?

And another thing I’ve noticed, when some guy poops on “survival tactics,” –run the other way. Because he is probably going to start the snake oil sales pitch and say that you have to buy his book or join his bullshit movement. All we can do at this stage of the game is exchange “survival tactics.” That’s not being defeatist, that is being realistic. We won’t defeat “gynocentricism” r libertarian tough guys any time soon. The most viable strategy is to survive as best as possible in these highly dysfunctional times…

Those are my observations…

Bryan Singer is far worse than Harvey Weinstein

….first of all, Weinstein was doing his deeds with adult women, this Singer creep was hurting boys….

…likely both used “if you are going to scratch my back…” promises…

…at least one person Weinstein tried to “seduce” was able to escape and become greatly successful in spite of him…

https://www.latimes.com/entertainment/la-et-entertainment-news-updates-1509029210-htmlstory.html#nt=card

who knows what really happened with The Harvster when you have an even bigger psychopath like Asia Argento….

stranger dreams…

I was on a mission to meet some guys who contacted me online. They said they needed someone like me to make their movement grow. To fight the good fight. And maybe there was some money on the table and maybe against my better judgement I was gonna do it. I was in a town I was never in before. Going up the back entrance to a seedy motel. And as I was about to go up a stairwell, a lady with dyed blonde hair and let’s say artificially enhanced breasts tried to wrap her arm around me. I thought she was going to try to steal my wallet. I ducked and tried to avoid her. She said, “You look good, luv. You surf?”I tried to make my way up a shoddy staircase. And her friend, an intimidating tattooed woman who looked like a bodybuilder blew stale cigarette smoke in my face and smiled. I bolted up several flights of stairs and heard them laughing. I got to the top floor as instructed. there were no numbers on the door but only one door. I knocked and a guy with a British accent said “what’s the code””a

“Fight ’em ’til you can’t fight ’em no more!”

The door swung open. One guy was fit looking with dirty blonde hair and busted teeth. The other was tall and obese. “Glad ye made eit mate!”

I quickly realized these guys were was different than their online personas and I was really scared. “Just a securetee percawshin'”

The first guy pulled out a pistol. The obese guy punched me in the stomach. I fell over as the wind was knocked outta me. The other guy pistol whipped me. Damn, that hurt. They duct taped my hands together and told me to lie on the floor. I heard a knock on the door.

“The bitches are here!” the fat man exclaimed.I heard running water then screaming and crying. I slowly freed myself from the duct tape as it tore the hairs from my arms. It was excruciating. I scavenged the room and found a gun, I also found a bag with cash and car keys. I crawled out into the main room. I had the gun in my right hand and the bag with keys and cash under my left arm. Luckily the carpeting muffled the sound of my movement. The bathroom door was partway open. I saw the muscular tatt’ed lady from before. Her face was covered in blood. She was soaking wet, in her undies and crying. She was facing me but her eyes were closed. I kept the gun aimed at her and wanted to shoot her but figured this was my chance to escape. I rolled onto my back and kept the gun aimed at the bathroom door. I could see the fat bastard. He had his pants around his ankles and was going at himself. He was looking at the tatt’ed lady and laughing. He didn’t look toward me. I could hear the fucker with the British accent and the cunt that tried to grab me before. I wanted to burst into the room and kill them all. But I could see an escape plan in my mind. I would find the car that the keys would open, I would drive it into a lake. I would take the cash and buy myself a train ticket and visit my estranged family. It was a solid plan. I crawled on my back to the door. I slowly stood with my back against the wall. The gun was still aimed at the bathroom door. I hoped on one of the motherfuckers would step out. I’ve never killed anyone before but I had a desire to see what it would be like. My right hand held the gun. My left arm had the cash and keys. My left hand slowly unlocked the door and twisted the door knob. I would be free.

I stepped out into the hallway and ran.

I awoke and my head hurt like hell. Jesus Christ and God Damnit, that shit was vivid.