….Heavy Metal Music Probably Saved My Life…

…so I wrote this article about the horrid experience of going to an all boys private school a little while back…

https://stonerwithaboner.wordpress.com/2019/02/28/the-real-reason-i-am-homophobic/

from that article…

Quickly, I became very unpopular and obsessed with heavy metal. (Heavy metal music probably saved my life but that is a whole other story.)

…I guess today is the time for that story…

…I was severely depressed, told day in and day out that everything I thought and felt was wrong, stupid and worthless” by parents, teachers, the cool kids and society.  The loud music with angry vocals let me into a world where I felt okay.  Where I wasn’t alone and wrong in every thought and feeling.  This escape into another world was much like drugs if I am completely honest.  But this other world saved me.  The rebellious spirit of the music let me find something inside myself.  I know that the following words will sound extremely arrogant and even narcissistic.  It allowed me to think that maybe what I was feeling was authentically real and it was others on the outside world who were wrong.  I did not need to be completely accurate in my beliefs but I just had to persevere with the attitude that those who were putting me down were more wrong than I was.  This “arrogance” has served me well.  It served me well when idiots like Paul Elam and the MRA crew insulted me (and were later proven to be incompetent.)  It will likely serve me well as more people see TamerLAME and the pro(white)male collective attacking the low status men they claim to serve.  Essentialy, the artform known as Heavy Metal allowed me to believe in me.  It didn’t make me think I was “worthy,” “a good person,” or “attractive.”  Rather it gave me a sense of believe that I was like a cockroach who could survive a nuclear winter when more “valuable” species went extinct. It allowed me to come to peace with the darker elements of my psyche.

This song is so valuable to me.  The personal meaning I gained from this is that you will pay an exceedingly high price if you don’t conform to others standards and you ask questions about why things are as they are.  You will be shunned and you will be an outcast.

This song helped me leave my family behind and leave the rustbelt town I grew up in. I imagined myself become the crippled old man who sat at the corner of the bar and said “shoulda, woulda, coulda” about the life that slipped through my fingers because I wanted to please other rather than attempt to become my own man.

This song taught me that when someone is bullying you they are trying to gain power over you by making you feel “less than.” Keep a pert of yourself that is like a wild animal, that is just a bit out of control.  Stay rough around the edges….

This song helped me learn about the rage and anger that flowed through my veins. I could bottle it up and let it slowly destroy me or I could use it as rocket fuel to persevere where others give up.  To try things that reasonable people consider foolhardy.

Here I would like to express my gratitude to this music that has helped me navigate through this fucked up world!

…the paradox of white male privilege…

…this is just a observation by a low status mixed race man who has watched “men’s movements” get shittier day by day…

…we get told that white men are the most “privileged” yet a simple search on google will show white men have the highest suicide rates…

…why would the most “privileged” have the highest suicide rates???

…seems counter-intuitive…

…as a low status, mixed race male…

…I have a resume that is swiss cheese…

…I am, by most measures an absolute failure with womyn though not an incel…

….and this should bug me…

……and I ought to slump my shoulders in shame…..

But I don’t…

…I noticed a few grey hairs in my beard…

…..I should’ve plucked them and felt like shit because I am getting old….

But I didn’t….

….I drive an old beat up truck…

…..I should feel ashamed that I can’t afford a new ride….

But I don’t…

Instead I feel good that I could keep an old truck going when someone else would’ve financed a newer vehicle…

I feel like I’ve survived and made it this far when I see grey hairs. IRL, I used to joke with one guy I’ve known about becoming “dirty old men.”  Day by day, we are getting there and we both had demons that got other men killed….

And being a failure with the ole career and the ladies… Well, doesn’t bug me so much, I just have a few grey hairs the “succesful” guys hair is falling out, haha…

There’s two parts to this equation…

The lefty/liberal types will say that the very real racism I’ve experienced is systematic/institutional….

The alt-riechtards will say that because I am genetically inferior, I can achieve less with my life…

Both groups have “lower expectations” for a guy like me.  It is easier to look at the failures in my life and just shrug my shoulders and say I never got a fair shot in the first place so why cry about shit I couldn’t really control.

A job loss?  Can I get unemployment and is it near summer time?  Good, most adults don’t get time off during summer…

Money problems and bankruptcy?  Why feel guilty, the President of the US did it several times, why can’t I?

Ironically, feminists, M(h)RA’s, Liberals, Tradcons and other assorted assholes looking down upon me has made my life easier and given me more freedom.  Success was always this thing outside of m reach no matter how much I tried to “pull myself up by the bootstraps” so why be so afraid of failure?   Sometimes just survival is winning and that’s enough to feel okay.  More and more I realize the whingefest of M(h)RA’s and “pro”male collective types have nothing to do with me.

And the firther irony is that Migturds and alt-reichtards won’t do a single thing to help the white guys they claim to love soooooo much….

none of this is my battle, so if you don’t like what I have to say, well fuck you…

 

 

 

 

 

…I like being male and I like being me…

I like having facial hair, broad shoulders and above average upper body strength.  Some guys are big and lumbering, think like a Ford F-350 trying to maneuver through small streets and park in a compact space.  Maybe they can bench allot but who really cares.  Some womyn are small and nimble and can move gracefully, think like  a tiny car that requires very little gas and can park in almost any spot.  I am like a small truck with a V6 engine.  More power than I need.  Not really powerful looking but outpowering most guys my size, they must be the four bangers.  I got power to run up hills.  I got maneuverability to dodge fists.  I got just enough brains to survive in a world that hates me.  Trevor Cormier’s condescending post erases a man such as myself.  The possibility that I could enjoy aspects of my existence even though the world hates me.  The possibility that my life could have value outside of a dominance hierarchy.  The possibility that I have been able to experience far more with psycadelics than most normies would imagine.  I don’t need the pro male collective…. it’s the other way around and Trevor Cromier is an intellectually dishonest coward for taking down his horrid video…

Only because this picture triggers the “pro” white male  colleKtive…

y’know what is truly sad…

I could get with a chick who looked like that much easier then I could get a ride like this…

No one who is “pro male” would ever make a video like this…

Thanks to Kurt for letting me know how low the “pro” (white) male collective has sunk.  He has also shown screen shots where those creeps obsessively talk about me.  I politely told those fuckers I wanted nothing to do with them and even though they say things like I am a worthless drug addict, I suspect the real reason they stalk my blog is so they can find things to steal, just change a few words and pretend it was their idea.
One of TamerLAME’s butt buddies made the above disgusting video, this  fella, Trevor Cormier.  He wants to be able to determine the gender of his child and make it a girl because womyn have much easier lives.  To be honest, I could only get through abut 4 minutes of the vile hate speech.  He is effectively recommending the same thing as scumbag extraordinnaire Roosh V suggested with his horrid neo-masculinity:
..and look at this post, where the horrid Tamerlane sucks up to me and suggests I start a Youtube channel…
These guys are absolutely worthless, don’t let them brigade your blog or steal your ideas.  Tamerlane is a parasite and not “pro male” in the slightest.  Just look at Trevor Cornball’s video.  You want a collective, you will be judged as a collective.  You are collectively a pile  of shit who hate other low status men but demand they do the work you are too lazy and incompetent to do yourselves!!!

They will say I am “strongmanning” because I don’t want to work with them. The truth is I don’t want to be associated with such incompetent motherfuckers!!!

Fuck You TamerLAme/ANALyzing MAle Slavery/Sulla 69 orwhateverthefuck you now are!!!

Fuck You Male Sentient Void, or should I say (fe)male incontinent droid!!!

Fuck you Kirea the Alt-Right racist (and your 302 sockpuppet accounts –or is it 402 sockpuppet accounts and 302 genders….)

Got Fist yourselves up the ass because you are the ones filled with misandry! Fuck You!!!!